Breathtaking
January 20, 2012
Yesterday marked two weeks. The first week I cried constantly… but the second week was different. I haven’t cried in several days. Now I know that you don’t have to cry to grieve, but I also know that I am a normal female and crying is just part of life. I sort of wondered what was going on.
It hit me yesterday as I was having a conversation with one of my coworkers. I was talking about how she was the most incredible chiropractor and used all these new techniques in her work. I noticed I was saying things like, “She knows how to treat muscles, not just bones” and “She keeps my migraines away” and “She is an awesome tennis player.”
Denial.
I think she’s coming back. I think she’s going to text me soon and say, “Hey, it’s been too long since I’ve treated you. You need to come in before your migraines come back, missy!” I think we’re going to go out to dinner with Debbie and Jennifer. I think she’s going to get engaged and be the most beautiful bride I’ve ever seen. I really think these things.
Last night I reread Lauren’s post and my post about her. I needed that. It was a nice dose of reality. She’s not coming back and I’m not going to get to see her until it’s my time to go see Jesus. How do I remember this?
Rhetorical.
I’m going to come back to my blog next week. I miss y’all. For now, I’m leaving you with the most gorgeous photo I’ve ever seen.
(Not trying to break any copyright laws… I know this is from a professional photographer but I don’t know who so I can’t cite her. Dear Photographer, I’m sorry I’m posting this photo on my blog without permission… only I’m not really sorry… This photo is too amazing to keep to myself. This has to be your best work.)
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7 Comments Leave a Comment
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Southern Gal | January 20, 2012 at 6:30 am
Gorgeous photo of Lucy.
Thinking of you. Praying for you. I’ve missed your posts. Take your time. Everyone grieves differently. Give yourself time.
Hugs, Chelsea.
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Molly | January 20, 2012 at 7:15 am
My dear friend…I love you. I have nothing else to say because nothing I say could possibly make you feel any better. So just know that: that I love you and think about you all the time. April can’t come soon enough (maybe March for that conference?) so I can hug your sweet self…while on tippy toes. Miss you. xoxo
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Tina | January 20, 2012 at 10:21 am
Missy. I keep thinking about how Lucy called everyone missy.
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Jen | January 20, 2012 at 1:50 pm
I was going to say the same thing Tina, missy…I never thought I would miss being called missy.
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Laurie | January 20, 2012 at 9:21 pm
Wow, I can’t believe that it has been 2 weeks.
Thinking of you, praying for you and Lucy’s family, loved ones & friends.
:::hugs:::
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Roxanne and David Wanja | January 21, 2012 at 12:11 pm
Hi Chelsea,
I don’t know if you remember us but we met you (i think) when Stuart played at River Oaks..I just happened across your blog and we have just finished reading all of it..Now that we have both cried a little again..I thought we’d comment and thank you for posting such a tribute to our Sweet Lucy! She was like a daughter to both of us and we too miss her terribly! We had the pleasure of only knowing her for 15 months, but the joy she filled us with is everything you describe her as. She was suppose to be our daughter in law and be the mother of our grandbabies…I could go on and on about all the wonderful things about her and all the pain we too are experiencing, but I won’t for now…I just felt the need to reach out to you and tell you that we really appreciate you putting in words and sharing with us! We are all bonded by our love for her!
Our prayers are with you and everyone who mourns and grieves for the awful loss and pain this is causing…but I will remind you as my husband reminds his son on a daily basis…we must always always find the joy in having known her in the first place and be grateful for the beauty she left in our hearts….I know thru your blog that you are trying to do just that!
Love,
David and Roxanne
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Melissa | January 22, 2012 at 11:04 am
That really is a beautiful picture, Chelsea. Still thinking of you, it’s an impossibly difficult time to be going through but just know everyone is here for you and we’ve got you in our thoughts and prayers.
Looking forward to having you back in the blogosphere in the week to come :)
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