It’s Tuesday
January 17, 2012
I promise we’ll get back to Ten on Tuesday next week. I’m slowly crawling out of my hole… and doing my best to not feel guilty about it. I didn’t foresee this portion of the grief process. I suppose at some point I won’t feel like I’m betraying Lucy by being happy. In my head I obviously know that she wouldn’t want all of us to live our lives in sorrow for her, but I can’t help it.
I spent a good portion of my day on Saturday drying out the flowers the were on Lucy’s casket. Talk about surreal. That’s just not something that a 27 year old should have to do. Next weekend will be spent making a shadow box for her boyfriend with the dried flowers. (No pressure…)
Anyways, thanks for your continued prayers, emails, etc. Thanks for not giving me a hard time about being MIA but also, thanks for continuing to show up around here so I know you’re still thinking of me.
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12 Comments Leave a Comment
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Southern Gal | January 17, 2012 at 6:31 am
Yes, thinking of you and praying.
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AshleyD | January 17, 2012 at 7:21 am
Still thinking of you. Hugs.
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Alice (aka Nana) | January 17, 2012 at 9:23 am
Take your time….and I really think the special items you are making for David and the Kenyons will not only be treasured by them, but be good therapy for working through your grief. Hugs every day….
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Lauren @ Enchanting | January 17, 2012 at 10:04 am
Hugs to you, Chelsea.
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Marlena | January 17, 2012 at 10:20 am
Sending so much love your way. You take however long you need. And try not to beat yourself up about the sorrow thing. Moving on does not mean leaving Lucy behind. That’s something you would never do. It just means you’re still here and you’re cherishing your own time on this Earth – what we’re all meant to do. Her love will always be with you.
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brittany | January 17, 2012 at 10:30 am
Oh gosh, that shadow box just hit my heart :(.
My grandpa passed away in November. He was the closest person in my life. I still have days where I just don’t want to do anything but sit and stare at the wall (I’ve mostly gotten past crying, but those moments still hit me, too).
You should not feel bad for (1) being happy or (2) taking all of the time off YOU need to mourn and heal. This was a big deal. I think we can all wait as long as you need for a Ten on Tuesday ;).
Praying for you still.
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Sarah Johnson | January 17, 2012 at 10:34 am
Did you get the card? I couldn’t remember if you liked Starbucks or not, so if you don’t, I’m super sorry!
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Just Real Happy | January 17, 2012 at 11:03 am
Take your time, friend. Prayers and love to you.
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Tina | January 17, 2012 at 11:31 am
Shadowbox=beautiful. And so was Lucy. And so are you.
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Heather | January 17, 2012 at 2:52 pm
Thoughts and prayers are with you, lady.
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Christina | January 17, 2012 at 8:43 pm
If there’s one thing I know about grief, is that it has it’s own timeline. Take whatever time you need and just let it happen.
My thoughts are with you!
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Jill | January 17, 2012 at 10:35 pm
Take your time Chelsea. It is for me to even imagine the pain of your loss :( Hang in there.
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